All that I am, all that I ever was…

I am more than my mental health. I am more than my homelessness. I am more than any one aspect of me. I am Addy. And this is…


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Weekly Photo Challenge: Sea

This week’s WordPress Photo Challenge is:

The sea

Port Fairy East Beach

“The road that is built in hope is more pleasant to the traveler than the road built in despair,
even though they both lead to the same destination.”

~ Marion Zimmer Bradley ~

Whatever the ocean once meant to me – relaxation, inspiration, joy – after a suicide attempt in 2006, it now means only hope. For I doubt I would be here today were it not for the emotional intervention this wide expanse of ocean provided one dark and lonely night.

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Weekly Photo Challenge: Focus

This week’s WordPress Photo Challenge is:

Focus

Blue Tongued Lizard

“My wife is a lovely leathery green, the blue-tongued lizard said;
Her eyes are as red as bulldog ants, lurking in holes in her head;
Her body is made of the speckled grass, a violet grows on her tongue,
And I could watch her for fifty years if nobody blundered along.
~ Douglas Stewart ~

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Weekly Photo Challenge: Forward

This week’s WordPress Photo Challenge is:

FORWARD

Weekly Photo Challenge - Forward

“March on. Do not tarry. To go forward is to move toward perfection.
March on, and fear not the thorns, or the sharp stones on life’s path.”
~ Kahlil Gibran ~

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Weekly Photo Challenge: Changing Seasons

This week’s WordPress Photo Challenge is:

CHANGING SEASONS

~ January 2002 ~

In January 2002, I was living in Inverness with my partner Louise. The days were short (five hours of daylight if we were lucky), cold (regularly dropping below zero) and beautiful (winter is my favourite season). To get us through the season we adopted a combination of snuggling under the duvet, snuggling under a blanket and snuggling under a duvet and blanket at the same time.

Given that so much snuggling often led to so much of something else, it’s not so hard to understand why days like below excited me so ;)

January 2002

Snowed Under (Inverness, 2002) © Addy

~ January 2003 ~

In January 2003, I was living in Melbourne with my partner Louise. The days were long (five hours of darkness if we were lucky), hot (regularly hitting the high thirties) and stifling (summer is my least favourite season). To get us through the season we adopted a combination of stripping to our swimwear, stripping to our birthday suits and stripping to our swimwear then birthday suits.

Given that so much stripping often led to so much of something else, it’s not so hard to understand why days like below excited me so ;)

January 2003

Sunbaking (January, 2003) © Addy

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Daily Prompt: Slash and Burn

Today’s WordPress Daily Prompt is:

Write 500 words on any topic you like. Now remove 250 of them without changing the essence of your post.

~ I will never forget her ~

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This is the original 500 word post I wrote with the changes blocked out…

One of the most special friendships I’ve had in my life was with Samantha.

We met in Adelaide, and didn’t exactly share the most ‘socially acceptable’ first meeting. For when I spontaneously smacked her ass as a ‘greeting’, I’d expected a swift slap across my face or a knee to the bollocks!

You see, what happened that night was a rare moment of serendipity.

So when she contacted me months later via Facebook, it wasn’t long before we became firm friends.

Our shared secret forced us to trust each other implicitly from the get go. One of the reasons I believe our friendship was so close, so quickly.

Over the months we shared our darkest desires and laughed ourselves silly over our life experiences.

By the time I’d returned to Scotland we were ready to meet. With nerves increasing one balmy night in Glasgow, we acted out her deepest fantasy.

Afterwards, we lay on the bed bathing in a shared moment of bliss that neither of us would forget for the rest of our lives.

Shortly before Christmas 2008, Samantha passed away following a drug overdose; and to this day, we don’t know whether this was an accidental or deliberate overdose.

Although we only knew each other for a year, Samantha was one of my closest friends; someone who never judged or criticized me. Someone who accepted me no questions asked.

That is why my friendship with Samantha was so special.

And that is why I will never forget her.

However interesting writing this post was, upon reading the final 250 word version I realise something quite important has been rendered absent from the heavy editing of the post; me.

Although the essence of the post is the same (i.e. how my friendship with Sammi was one of the most important of my life) the editing has removed all essence of ‘me’.

So although I succeeded in the challenge, I realise more than ever how important it is to stay true to your unique writing voice.

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Daily Prompt: Morton’s Fork

Today’s WordPress Daily Prompt is:

If you had to choose between being able to write a blog (but not read others’) and being able to read others’ blogs (but not write your own), which would you pick? Why?

To blog or not to blog

Given I’ve been thinking recently of ending the blog, this isn’t a difficult choice at all; I would read other blogs and not write my own.

Being someone who often questions why he continues to write a blog, I’d much rather throw myself into the worlds of others than continue sharing my own. This way, I could keep up to date with news, current affairs, opinions, the occasional naughty photograph and the lives of others without having to worry about creating interesting post ideas, the continual embarrassment of sharing my existence so publicly and whether or not anyone is enjoying what I’ve written.

Granted, for a long time this blog has been my only therapy. It has been there when no-one else was, helped me through difficult and painful experiences and provided solace when all felt lost. But if I didn’t write this blog I could still achieve this release through journals without having to bother anyone with my meandering, soul-searching ramblings.

There is also Twitter, which although far from a safe place, could offer the chance to micro-blog my pain and continue my quest to raise awareness of the things society prefers not to talk about.

So all up, this choice is simple, but the choice over whether I should end the blog in reality is a lot more complicated.

Until I’ve decided, I’ll just continue with the best of both worlds.