All that I am, all that I ever was…

I am more than my mental health. I am more than my homelessness. I am more than any one aspect of me. I am Addy. And this is…


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The Light Will Stay On (The Walkabouts)

The last seven days have been a particularly difficult and trying time for me. My mood has been low. My PTSD has been off the charts. My abdominal pain has returned with a vengeance. And my anxiety has been super difficult to control. So in a valiant attempt to end the week on a high, I’ve decided a spot of music is in order, and this classic piece of Seattle-based rock has never failed to soothe my soul. Hopefully it will do the same for you. Enjoy! :)

The Light Will Stay On | The Walkabouts


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What is music therapy?

Music TherapyWhilst doing my daily round of my favourite websites this morning I stumbled upon this interesting article on music therapy on The Conversation. It traverses the history of music therapy, how music can trigger an endorphin release and how music therapy can be used in the treatment of neurorehabilitation, dementia and children.

If you get the chance, it’s definitely worth a read.

Defining music therapy is challenging because the practice is so diverse; but the Australian Music Therapy Association (AMTA) uses the following definition:

“Music therapy is a research-based practice and profession in which music is used to actively support people as they strive to improve their health, functioning and wellbeing.”

Music therapy is the intentional use of music by a university-trained professional who is registered with the AMTA.

Registered music therapists draw on an extensive body of research and are bound by a code of ethics that informs their practice. They incorporate a range of music-making methods within a therapeutic relationship and are employed in a variety of sectors including health, community, aged care, disability, early childhood, and private practice.

Music therapy is different from music education and entertainment as it focuses on health, functioning and wellbeing, and music therapists work with people of any age and ability, culture or background.

Continue reading ‘Explainer: What is music Therapy?‘  >>>

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Music for Monday: Here Come the Sirens ’cause Babe, I’m on Fire

The thirty-day song challenge continues with two songs that remind me of things both good and bad.

A song that reminds me of summer

Here Come the Sirens | My Friend the Chocolate Cake

As I am about to enter another blistering Australian summer, my mind has been drifting to a song I discovered during my first summer in this sun-baked land. Here Come the Sirens, more than any other song, reminds me of the grotesque summer months in this otherwise tolerable land.

I lay back in the room with dark red curtains,
Wake up to the trucks outside my door,
Short of sleep.
And the sky tonight it’s a deadly one,
It hardly lets us breath,”

A song that reminds me of my best friend

Babe I’m on Fire | Nick Cave and the Bad Seeds

Why this song reminds me of my now sadly deceased best friend, Samantha, is a little too personal to share in a non-password protected post. Needless to say, it was one of the greatest fifteen minutes of my life and this is one of my favourite pieces of music of all time! :p

The man going hiking says it
The misunderstood Viking says it
The man at the rodeo
And the lonely old Eskimo says
Babe, I’m on fire
Babe, I’m on fire”


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Music for Monday: A Cyndi Lauper double-bill!

The thirty day song challenge continues with a Cyndi Lauper double-bill to kickstart your week with a smile (and a tear!)

A song that makes me want to dance

Girls Just Want To Have Fun | Cyndi Lauper

I’m not sure why this song makes me want to dance so much, but make me dance it does! Over the years, I’ve also realised it’s a stunningly good ‘housework song’, which is kinda like dancing, only with a vacuum cleaner instead of a hot partner.

Some boys take a beautiful girl
And hide her away from the rest of the world
I want to be the one to walk in the sun
Oh girls they want to have fun
Oh girls just want to have”

A song that makes me cry

True Colors | Cyndi Lauper

This is one of those songs that’s difficult for me to listen to given the power it has over my emotions. Needless to say, it’s up there with Macy Gray’s I Try and Jeff Buckley’s Hallelujah as a song that can turn on the waterworks almost instantly.

Show me a smile then,
Don’t be unhappy, can’t remember
When I last saw you laughing
If this world makes you crazy
And you’ve taken all you can bear
You call me up
Because you know I’ll be there”


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Music for Monday: Stronger when naked

Earlier this year, before my relapse, I began working through a thirty day song challenge that I discovered on MM172001’s blog. Now that things are more settled I’ve decided to pick up where I left off, only instead of doing it daily, I’ll be sharing my responses weekly. Who knows, perhaps you’ll discover some new songs to love or a few old favourites to re-live! :)

A song that is my guilty pleasure

Stronger | Britney Spears

More often than not, when I mention my love for songstress Britney Spears the words Oops I did it again follow shortly after, which is because the title track of her second album is a song I cherish beyond all measure. But I’m also a huge fan of the second track of this album, Stronger, because it takes me back to the heady days of my backpacking adventures and is a bit of a personal ‘psych myself up’ anthem.

Stronger than yesterday
Now it’s nothing but my way
My loneliness ain’t killing me no more
I’m stronger”

A song I liked when I was younger

Naked | Louise

To be honest, I’m not all that ashamed that this was the very first single I ever purchased. Sure, it’s a cheesy pop anthem rather than a prog-rock classic or folk-rock work of genius, but compared to the output of today’s pop studios, this is very almost a work of art. Also, popstars take note…it’s entirely possible to be sexy without taking your clothes off.

“I lie awake, hesitate between love and hate
I know you’ve been feeding my infatuation
I can see you and me doing things we shouldn’t be
I can’t seem to stop my imagination”

~ Previous installments of the Song Challenge ~

| Day 01: A song that makes me happy | Day 02: A song that makes me clear my head |
| Day 03: A song that makes me laugh | Day 04: A song that reminds me of something sad |
| Day 05: A song that has new meaning every time I hear it | Day 06: A song I can always relate to |


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Music for Monday: New meanings and old messages

Earlier this year, before my relapse, I began working through a thirty day song challenge that I discovered on MM172001’s blog. Now that things are a little more settled I’ve decided to pick up where I left off, only instead of doing it daily, I will be sharing my responses weekly.

Each and every Monday for the next twelve weeks, I’ll share my response to two of the prompts so we can kick-start the week with some awesome music therapy.

Who knows, perhaps you’ll discover some new songs to love or a few old favourites to re-live! :)

A song that has a new meaning every time I hear it

Kettering | The Antlers

I first heard this song in 2010 when it featured on the soundtrack of the superb television show Chuck. The album it is taken from (Hospice) was the first concept album from the group The Antlers and tells the story of the relationship between a hospice worker and a female patient suffering from terminal bone cancer.

On the first few occasions I listened to it outside of Chuck it was the atmosphere the music produced that I soaked in, but further focus and reflection on the lyrics revealed so many more layers to this masterpiece of contemporary music, especially having been in an abusive relationship, which (to me) parts of this song are referring to.

You made me sleep all uneven
And I didn’t believe them
When they told me that there
Was no saving you”

A song I can always relate to

Unwell | Matchbox Twenty

More than any other song this is the one I can always relate to. For many – many – years it has been an unofficial anthem of mine and anyone who hears the lyrics should be able to understand why. I am particularly fond of the chorus, which is one of the few pieces of music I will always sing-a-long to whenever (and wherever) I hear it.

“But I’m not crazy, I’m just a little unwell
I know right now you can’t tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you’ll see
A different side of me…”

~ Previous installments of the Song Challenge ~

| Day 01: A song that makes me happy | Day 02: A song that makes me clear my head |
| Day 03: A song that makes me laugh | Day 04: A song that reminds me of something sad |