All that I am, all that I ever was…

I am more than my mental health. I am more than my homelessness. I am more than any one aspect of me. I am Addy. And this is…


Absence makes the heart crave alcohol


It’s been so long since I visited my blog I’ve almost forgotten what it looks like. My absence is not intentional, nor planned, but I humbly apologise if I’ve made anyone worry over vanishing from the interwebs for as long as I have.

Over the last few weeks I’ve had to deal with network connection problems, then a broken modem and the ongoing (all too obvious) pain of this most insidious time of year.

So much so that –  for the first time in a while – I’ve broken my strict ‘drink only on four days of the year rule’ and found myself imbibing increasing amounts of alcohol in an effort to numb the ever-increasing pain…something I fear will be replayed until the calendar clicks over to 2013 and begins to mark six years since I had a ‘life’. *sigh*.

It would be all too easy for my tipsy depression to whine, complain and rant at the moment but (fortunately for you) the internet cafe closes early today so I have only a few minutes online.

I will endeavour to be online as often as I can until I can resolve my current internet connection issues. I’m not sure how long this will be, but I’m doing all I can to somersault through the flaming hoops set up to make things as difficult as possible for people in low socioeconomic groups to connect with society, so my updates, tweets, comments and posts could be sporadic for the near future. Something I am truly sorry about (as I miss catching up on people’s blogs more than I miss writing my own).

Until then, I hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas full of fun, excitement and happiness; or if you’re as isolated as I am…*hugs* I hope the day wasn’t too painful :)

PS…it wasn’t all bad. After nearly twenty-five years of being a fan I finally got to see something I have always wanted to see; a camera movement I believe is a first in the Doctor’s 49 year history!

*smiles*…and yes, the new interior has my absolute stamp of approval, especially as we enter the fiftieth anniversay year!