All that I am, all that I ever was…

I am more than my mental health. I am more than my homelessness. I am more than any one aspect of me. I am Addy. And this is…


25 Songs, 25 Days: I’ve Never Been To Me

Day 22: A song that someone has sung to you

I’ve Never Been To Me | Charlene


Personally, I think this is one of the worst songs ever recorded. I hate it. I despise it. I find it galling, sentimental and the closest thing to musical trash the universe has ever produced. But, for some inexplicable reason, my abuser loved this song. She loved listening to it. She loved singing it. And on one occasion, in an effort to convince me it was a great song, she sang it to me in its entirety.

Surprisingly, all she did was convince me how truly bad this song really is. So honestly, truly, I apologise profusely for it being today’s selection. But the truth is, very few people have ever sung to me, and outside of lullabies, this is the only tune that came to mind.

Probably because my abuser’s rendition of it is burned forever onto my psyche.


It was that bad!