All that I am, all that I ever was…

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Sunday Stealing: I want you to be free from me


Okay, so I was somewhat slack last week. I had a lazy weekend curled up on the couch and didn’t get around to indulging in my regular Sunday Stealing. But today is a new week, and I have a bit more energy, so settle back and enjoy another jaunt through the magnificent world of Sunday Stealing! :)

Are your nails painted a dark or light color?

I’ve never been one to paint my nails. Sure, some men feel the need to decorate, but I don’t. So at this precise moment in time my nails are normal, fleshy coloured.

Have you ever order pizza online?

I have. When I feel like treating myself I order Dominoes online. They’re not the best tasting pizzas in the world, but their online ordering system is simple and easy to use. Plus, they offer a tracking service so you can see how far along the production line your pizza is. Which is kinda cool! :)

What color was the last candle you lit?

Red. The best colour of candle. For that matter, the best colour of anything!

Is there something written on your shirt right now?

Nope, I’m just wearing a plain green T-Shirt. No writing, no picture, no adornments of any kind.

Is there a bookshelf in your room?

I have bookshelves all over my unit. I love books. They make me feel safe and secure.

Do you own a treadmill?

No. I’m too far under the poverty line for such a luxury.

Have you ever signed up for a gym membership?

I have. And like most people I’m active at the gym for the first couple of months and then never visit it again.

Is there a garbage can in your room? What color is it?

No. I’m too far under the poverty line for such a luxury. I just have a plastic bag hanging off a cupboard handle.

Have you ever read in the bathtub?

Unfortunately, I currently don’t have a bathtub, so there is no reading in the bath for me. But when I did used to live somewhere with one, I would frequently read in the tub. In fact, there’s nothing more relaxing than soaking in a steaming hot tub of water whilst reading your favourite book.

Have you ever had to wear a hairnet?

No. Like treadmills and garbage cans, I’m too far under the poverty line for such a luxury! :)

Do you know how many pages the last book you read had?

The last book I read was The Dead Beat by Doug Johnstone. A gripping, page turner of a thriller that had 250 action packed pages.

What day of the week does the laundry usually get done?

Sunday. Easily the best day of the week to do laundry. Unless it’s raining, in which case, any day will do really!

Do you use the Facebook chat often?

I never use Facebook chat. My social anxiety precludes the use of any real-time communication software. I’m much more at ease liking and commenting as I can take hours thinking of the right words to express my point of view. Something you can’t really do in chat.

Do you have any baby pictures of yourself on your computer?

I do. And to prove it, here’s baby Addy:


Baby Addy | Leeds (1978)

Do you eat onion rings?

No. I don’t eat onions of any kind. Disgusting, horrible things that they are.

What flavor of tea did you last have?

Peppermint; my favourite flavour of tea.

Do you own a bathrobe?

Yep, you guessed it. I’m too far under the poverty line for such a luxurious item!

Did you/will you have coffee or some other form of caffeine today?

I abhor coffee. I hate the smell, I hate the taste, I hate everything about it. My only caffeine comes from the copious amounts of coca-cola that I drink. And yes, I have had some today, as I do most days.

Do you have a mailbox or do you collect your mail from the post office?

I have a mailbox! But only because there was one already in place when I moved in. If I’d had to buy my own, I wouldn’t, as – that’s right – I’m too far below the poverty line to afford such a luxury.

What was the last animal you saw, and was it a pet?

The last animal I saw was a bird, nonchalantly sitting on my back fence. The last flightless animal I saw was a koala at Melbourne Zoo in 2013. Neither were pets.


Koala | Melbourne Zoo (2013)

What was the last documentary you watched focusing on?

The last documentary I watched was West Of Memphis, which focused on the trials and tribulations of the West Memphis Three.

Is there anything you need to remember to do before the day ends?

Eat dinner. My depression has been pretty bad today, so if I don’t remind myself to do it, I’ll go hungry.

Is your car messy, or do you like to keep it clean?

I don’t own a car. Surprisingly, as I can’t even afford a garbage can, I’m too far under the poverty line to afford such a luxury! ;)

Are you the type to wake up before the sun has even risen?

I used to be. I used to be a very early riser. But these days, courtesy of the psychiatric medication I take, I’m rarely, if ever, up before the sun.

Do you get uncomfortable when people stare at you?

Yes. What gives them the right to stare at me. It’s not as if I’m good-looking or sexy. If they’re staring, it must be because they think I’m a hideous oaf.

Have you ever been admitted to the hospital for a long period of time?

The longest I’ve ever been in hospital was in January/February of this year, when I was forced into a two and a half week stay due to pancreatitis. One of the most boring and uninspired two and a half weeks of my life!

11 thoughts on “Sunday Stealing: I want you to be free from me

  1. love this. great answers. I should have counted how many times you said I’m too far under the poverty line to own such a luxury :-) lol. really though I am going to do this later today. XX

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  2. I am sensing a theme to this weeks answers! Poverty indeed. Been there, so I know what you mean. That aside, let’s focus on the people starting at you thing…Perhaps the people looking are artists and you have such character in your face from all of your experiences that they cannot help but to stare so that when they get home they might attempt to create that which is displayed so unopenly? No? Well, stare back, it makes people just as uncomfortable as it does you. I have noticed a decided lack of eye contact. It’s almost as though people are afraid to make eye contact…a ponderance for sure…in short, a good read today. Poverty driven and all :)

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    • I may have gone a little overboard with the poverty thing, but it’s been on my mind lately. I’m terrible at making eye contact with people, it really freaks me out, and will more often than not look anywhere but at their face. It makes people really uncomfortable, or so my support worker says, so I’m trying to get better at it. Maybe I’ll take your advice and start staring at people back. It’ll be good practice and might freak the odd person out at the same time, which is never a bad thing! :)

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  3. I’m not good at eye contact thing either, but I am glad ordinarilyjustme said all that because I was thinking similar things: maybe they’re trying to work up nerve to say hi/ask you out/ask for directions/give you a million dollars? :-)

    The trash can in my room as a child was an empty cardboard can wrapped in ?contact paper? or something.

    And that is one awesome baby photo, you lucky guy. I have precisely one picture of myself as a baby.

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    • I don’t have many photos of me as a baby, this is just my favourite as it also contains my yellow blankie, which saw me through many turbulent times when I was a young ‘un! :)


  4. Love the baby picture! Because I’m a school teacher, I’m used to being stared at.

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  5. Cute baby! Aww.

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