All that I am, all that I ever was…

I am more than my mental health. I am more than my homelessness. I am more than any one aspect of me. I am Addy. And this is…

25 Songs, 25 Days: I’ve Never Been To Me


Day 22: A song that someone has sung to you

I’ve Never Been To Me | Charlene


Personally, I think this is one of the worst songs ever recorded. I hate it. I despise it. I find it galling, sentimental and the closest thing to musical trash the universe has ever produced. But, for some inexplicable reason, my abuser loved this song. She loved listening to it. She loved singing it. And on one occasion, in an effort to convince me it was a great song, she sang it to me in its entirety.

Surprisingly, all she did was convince me how truly bad this song really is. So honestly, truly, I apologise profusely for it being today’s selection. But the truth is, very few people have ever sung to me, and outside of lullabies, this is the only tune that came to mind.

Probably because my abuser’s rendition of it is burned forever onto my psyche.


It was that bad!

5 thoughts on “25 Songs, 25 Days: I’ve Never Been To Me

  1. That just goes to show how bad your abuser was for you if she kept singing a song to you that you did not like. I hate abuse intensely. I have never personally been abused. People have run me down and said nasty things about me behind my back and laughed at me. I don’t consider that abuse. It would be easy for me to say ‘forget about your abuse and your abuser’. That would also be a trite thing to say. One keeps a memory of all that happens to us both good and bad. I am currently learning that forgiveness means that we can move on. If we forgive them, release them, then we will be set free. That does not mean that what they did was right. Abuse is never right. But to be able to move on into a new, good phase of life is surely a very desirable thing.

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  2. omg its woful! Its getting a massive thumbs down from me. XX

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