All that I am, all that I ever was…

I am more than my mental health. I am more than my homelessness. I am more than any one aspect of me. I am Addy. And this is…

There She Goes My Beautiful World


Hello everyone,

Andrew’s had a bad day today so I’m taking it upon myself to cheer him up. He feels guilty that he didn’t go to the gym this afternoon. He said he was going to go on a Monday, on a Wednesday and on a Friday, but he didn’t go today because he was feeling too sad. Vanessa was being really mean to him and it upset Andrew to the point he was unable to leave the house. He just argued with Vanessa and scared me with how much he raised his voice and all the shouting he was doing. I don’t like it when Andrew gets like that. He says it is PTSD. He says he is trying to control it and I know that he is but I don’t like it because he gets upset and sad and isn’t happy. I like Andrew when he’s happy and laughing. He has a cute laugh. You’d like his laugh. Maybe I’ll record it one day and play it to you. But I won’t record his arguments with Vanessa because they scare me and I don’t want to scare you. So here is a music video that I like. It makes me happy to hear this song and I know it makes Andrew happy to. Hopefully he won’t mind me writing this today and telling you he has had a bad day. I don’t think he’s a failure and I hope you don’t think he is either. He was just sad today, that is all. So here is the music video that I like. It is by Nick Cave and the Bad Seeds and is called There She Goes My Beautiful World. Big hugs to you all.

Love you all.
Meadhbh xxx

6 thoughts on “There She Goes My Beautiful World

  1. Thanks for updating us! I hope Addy feels better soon!

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    • Thanks for the comment, you really made Meadhbh’s day by leaving it. She’s been hyper-excited all day because of it! :) I’m feeling a little better today. The PTSD issues haven’t been as severe and I’ve spent the day being nice to myself. Tomorrow I’ll have another go at going to the gym. Hope you’re having a great day! :)


  2. To Addy and Meadhbh: I hope you have a better Tuesday. Addy isn’t a failure, he just missed a day at the gym. And thank you for the video.

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    • Thanks for the comment. Meadhbh got really excited that people were responding to her post. She’s been excited and happy all day as a result. So entertaining. I’ll be having another go at the gym tomorrow. I’m trying not to think of myself as a failure for missing it yesterday, I just have to learn to be a little easier on myself. Wishing you a wonderful day! :)


  3. Hey Meadhbh,
    Sorry to hear Addy wasn’t feeling great today. It’s good to know you was there for him though. Give him a reassuring talk and hug from me. Missing one day at the gym doesn’t undo everything he has already achieved. Nice to meet you too.
    Lots of love,
    Charlotte :) xx

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    • Meadhbh: Thank you so muchly for replying to my post. It always makes me giddy with happiness when people respond to me. I did give Andrew a reassuring talk, and I think he took on board what I was saying, I hope he did anyway. He’s always too hard on himself but I’m working on him! Have a love day Charlotte! xox

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