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Getting to know me, getting to know all about me… (III)

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Recently, Marci (over at Marci, Mental Health and More) began a series of 100 questions designed to get to know someone better. As I’ve been blogging so infrequently lately I’ve decided to follow her lead and post my own answers to the questions. This way, people who’ve been following my blog for a while can get to know me a little better whilst newbies to my wonderful world can learn a few random things about me.

| Questions 1 – 26 | Questions 27 – 50 |

51. Would you rather trade intelligence for looks or looks for intelligence?

Looks fade. They are also incredibly subjective. What is beautiful to one person is ugly to another. For example, I personally think Joe Maganiello isn’t that attractive, but I’m sure many people would disagree. So I would vote for intelligence all the time.

52. How often do you buy clothes?

Rarely. Though I should point out that this isn’t by choice. I would love to be able to buy more clothes, as having only two threadbare T-Shirts is somewhat frustrating. However, I am cursed to live off disability benefits, so after the essentials of rent, food and bills there is virtually no money left – even for charity shop clothing.

53. Have you ever had a secret admirer?

Excuse me while I laugh myself silly. I have it on good (or rather, abusive) authority that I am the ugliest most repulsive person that has ever walked the face of the planet. In fact, according to my abuser, looking at me made her want to vomit. So the likelihood of me having a secret admirer is slim to none, mainly the latter.

54. What’s your favorite holiday?

I hate all holidays. I’m not a Scrooge or a miser, just someone who has been forced to protect himself from triggers at all costs, and I find holidays a particularly powerful trigger. They are generally seen to be times of the year that you spend chilling out with friends and family, and having no friends, and with my family on the other side of the world, it is just me. So I tend to try to ‘forget’ holidays as and when they come around, otherwise chaos will ensue.

55. What’s the most daring thing you’ve ever done?

I’m not a very daring person. I don’t like rollercoasters, I don’t like extreme sports, people who bungee jump are clearly idiots and those who jump out of planes must have several screws loose. So in answering this question I fear I will make myself look like a boring person. But, reading Shakespearian monologues in public places was pretty daring for a socially anxious person, as was travelling the breadth of Canada with very little money. Some would say walking up to a random woman and slapping her on the backside is a pretty daring thing to do (although others would, rightly, shower me with scorn for partaking in such a misogynistic act!) whilst others would (hopefully) agree with me when I settle on homelessness being the most daring (albeit unintentional) thing I’ve ever done.

56. What was the last thing you recorded on TV?

As I don’t receive television reception, it’s a fairly safe bet to say I don’t record anything on TV, otherwise I would just be recording a blank screen. My television is used exclusively for DVDs, Blu-rays and video games, nothing more.

57. What was the last book you read?

Justice Denied, by Robin Bowles. It is a true crime book concerning the disappearance and murder of a two-year old boy in Australia. Enthralling.

justice denied

(57) Enthralling

58. What’s your favorite type of foreign food?

I am a man of simple tastes, so the food I eat is generally simple and non-adventurous. I don’t have a taste for Chinese, Japanese or other national food stuffs. In fact, the only non-British type food I eat is Thai, and that’s predominantly coconut rice, tofu and vegetables. It may make me look simple, but that’s just how it is.

59. Are you a clean or messy person?

I tend to be a bit of both, depending on my mood. If I’m in the upside of a bipolar cycle I’m immaculate, because I’m cleaning all the time. But if I’m in the low-end of the cycle, I’m beyond messy, as I have neither the motivation or energy to do any cleaning.

60. Who would you want to play you in a movie of your life?

Ahhhh, an excuse to share a link to one of my favourite posts: My life in a movie, in which I ruminate on what a movie of my life would be like. So why not go and read, it’s mightily entertaining. But as for the actual question, I would choose David Tennant to play me. A masterful, brilliant actor of tremendous depth.

david tennant

(60) David Tennant, a masterful, brilliant actor of tremendous depth.

61. How long does it take you to get ready in the morning?

If it takes me longer than five minutes to get ready there is something seriously wrong with me. Which at times, there is, as depression will often prevent me from getting out of bed, let alone getting myself ready to face the day!

62. What kitchen appliance do you use every day?

Kettle; I’m British, and as such, I like my tea! :)

63. What’s your favorite fast food chain?

The only fast food I will eat is Subway, because I love the Italian Herbs and Cheese bread and the old english cheese. I despise all other fast food outlets and will only eat at them when I am severely depressed and in a vicious ‘self-punishment’ mentality .

64. What’s your favorite family recipe?

Apple crumble; delicious!

65. Do you love or hate rollercoasters?

I hate rollercoasters. My life has too many ups and downs as it is, why would I want any more?

66. What’s your favorite family tradition?

I honestly cannot think of a single tradition my family has. When I was a kid, it always used to be the annual family gathering at Christmas, where food was consumed in vast quantities before merriment was had over board games and quizzes. Good times.

67. What is your favorite childhood memory?

The aforementioned Christmas gatherings would be up there as some of my favourite childhood memories, as would pretending to be wolves and playing in a big pile of mud with my first crush, playing Zelda on the SNES with Meadhbh offering backup, and performing as one of the ugly sisters in a primary school pantomime.

68. What’s your favorite movie?

Fight Club; a masterwork of direction, writing, acting and cinematography. Pure brilliance from beginning to end.

69. How old were you when you learned Santa wasn’t real? How did you find out?

I have absolutely no idea. That’s how much Santa used to mean to me! :p

70. Is your glass half full or half empty?

Always half empty. It’s depressing, but then, so is life.

71. What’s the craziest thing you’ve done in the name of love?

Emigrated to the other side of the world, sacrificing my family, friends, home and country of birth in the process. All for a woman I would later discover was having an affair and didn’t want me to emigrate in the first place. Fun times.

fight club

(68) Fight Club, pure brilliance from beginning to end.

72. What three items would you take with you on a deserted island?

i. My favourite book, Quest for a Kelpie.
ii. A journal (one with an attached pen to write with).
iii. A swiss army knife.

73. What was your favorite subject in school?

I used to love Media Studies. In fact, it was one of the few subjects I ever used to look forward to. I also used to enjoy English, especially the creative writing and Shakespeare studying aspects of the subject. So why I didn’t do English for A-level is a question only my social anxiety can answer!

74. What’s the most unusual thing you’ve ever eaten?

As I said above, I’m a very simple man, with very simple tastes. As such, I am not adventurous when it comes to eating. So I shall say jam.

75. Do you collect anything?

DVDs/Blu-Rays; as I said yesterday, film and television is one of my passions so it stands to reason I indulge in it from time to time. I also have a large collection of miscellaneous kink related paraphernalia that I’m mightily proud of, but I can’t go into that outside of a password protected post! :p

One thought on “Getting to know me, getting to know all about me… (III)

  1. I have seen video footage of you climbing a wall to a balcony whilst ‘re enacting Romeo & Juliet I would say that was quite daring (even if you were on the tipsy side) . I am sure you have had secret admirers but your esteem has been too low to have seen it.
    This blog of questions and answers is really interesting and I’m trying to think how I would answer each question some with difficulty


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