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Day 01: What are your mental illness(es)?


To commemorate Mental Health Month, I have decided to undertake the 30 Days of Mental Illness Awareness Blog Challenge, as conceived by Marci on her blog Marci, Mental Health & More. Although headway has most certainly been made in mental health awareness over the last six years, we still have an awful long way to go before mental illness is accepted as freely as physical illness. So feel free to join in with the challenge and help raise awareness of mental illness! :)

Day 1: What is/are your mental illness(es)? Explain it a little.


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One of the most frustrating things a psychiatrist ever said to me was that “it wasn’t possible to suffer from multiple diagnoses” because “how [was he] supposed to know what to treat?”

I vehemently disagree with this opinion, not just because my diagnosis is three-fold, but because you can suffer from (and be treated for) multiple physical illnesses at the same time (e.g. bronchitis, diabetes, asthma) so why not mental illnesses?

My diagnoses are Bipolar Affective Disorder (Type 1), PTSD and Social Anxiety Disorder.

From reading that list, many people would assume that Bipolar (given its one of the ‘big mental illnesses’) would be the one that causes me the most distress. It isn’t a pleasant experience having your moods oscillate from the highs of mania to the crippling lows of suicidal depression, nor is it pleasant being discriminated against because people have lesser understanding of this condition than other mental illnesses, such as depression. But for me, the one that causes the most problems, the one I would happily take a ‘magic pill’ to eradicate, is social anxiety disorder.

This condition has destroyed my life in ways even I struggle to comprehend, and yet, because of opinions similar to those of the psychiatrist I quoted above, it is the mental illness I’ve received the least amount of help to manage.

Most see the words bipolar affective disorder and decide this is the only issue that needs treating. They don’t see the damage that social anxiety has caused; the inability to connect to people, the frequent (and debilitating) panic attacks, the frustration of self-imposed isolation because I cannot venture outside in fear of what people may say (or think) about me.

Couple this with my PTSD, and the inherent distrust of humanity that has resulted from the traumatic incidents that caused this condition, it makes ‘living’ feel almost impossible to achieve. Instead, the combination of my three illnesses forces me to ‘survive’ or, at best, ‘exist’.

This is why opinions such as the one dictated to me by that psychiatrist frustrate me so. Is it so difficult to understand that someone can and does suffer from multiple mental illnesses? That these illnesses interact with each other; feeding into each other to double or triple the pain that someone is in?

And is it so difficult to just treat the person rather than focus on the label(s) that have been branded onto his or her head?

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5 thoughts on “Day 01: What are your mental illness(es)?

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  3. wow how 1858 of your psych! I can’t believe that’s the opinion, however I don’t have much of an opinion of psychiatrists in general.
    It is possible to treat the WHOLE PERSON and many therapists do, I hope you find one that will do that for you, because if something or someone doesn’t sit right with you it’s in your best interests to keep looking (as exhausting as that is) until you find the right person to treat you. It is, after all, all about you, and you are paying them to provide a service also, which is not being provided here by the sounds of it.

    I understand your frustration I’m frustrated just reading this! xo


    • Thanks for your comment! :)

      My opinion of psychiatrists is also exceedingly low, fortunately I’ve found a MH organisation that utilises the Recovery Model, which looks at the person as a whole rather than the labels that have been applied to them. If I hadn’t found this organisation I’m not sure where I’d be right now as they’ve helped me more than any psychiatrist ever has.

      One day I may return to the psychiatric system, but right now I’m happy with the help I’m receiving, which is half the battle! :)


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