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Sunday Stealing: Sell your bad memories here

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Welcome back to Sunday Stealing. Here we will steal all types of memes from every corner of the blogosphere. Our promise to you is that we will work hard to find the most interesting and intelligent memes.

Today we ripped off a blogger named Memphis Steve from the blog Steve’s Nude Memphis Blog. He does not say where he got it from, but judging by his profile picture, we don’t want to know!

Should you fancy it, you can read the first part of this meme here.

bad memories

Have any memories that you’d like to forget?

Ummm…where do I start?

  • Thirteen odd years of school bullying…
  • Multiple suicide attempts…
  • An emotionally abusive relationship that crippled my life…
  • Being assaulted and raped…
  • The loss of everything in my life multiple times over…
  • More physical assaults…
  • Half a decade of homelessness…
  • The two hours I spent watching Catwoman

For the last twenty odd years my life has been a cavalcade of painful incidents I’d like to banish from my mind Eternal Sunshine style…or would I?

No matter how painful those memories (Catwoman especially) they have all taught me more about the world and what I’m capable of than any number of university lectures could ever have done.

Is there someone you really like to hang out with and just talk about stuff?

Past..

I used to really love hanging out with Grace, she was always a wonderful person to just talk to; full of life, knowledge and a wicked sense of humor. Then there’s Annie and the wonderful time we had chilling out and fooling around in Canada. Sammi goes without saying, we could always find random and (occasionally kinky) ways to pass the time :p

In fact, there are plenty of people from my past I loved hanging out with and talking about stuff.

Present…

Which kinda makes my present all the more lonely. There’s something a little sad about answering with Meadhbh and Audrey, given they’re hallucinations and all, but that’s all I really have in the real-world present. There are some wonderful people I enjoy emailing, but my current exhaustion and unfocused mentality is making that exceedingly difficult.

Future…

Who the hell knows? Hopefully there will be someone other than my voices! ;)

Have you ever been called prince or princess?

I’ve been called Princess a few times by some random morons who thought it was a creative and inspired form of insult. The only person  I can recall ever calling me Prince was Sammi, who referred to me as her ‘Prince’ over a breakfast of MacDonald’s muffins and hash browns in Glasgow.

Do you think teenagers are weird?

Yes. But then, so are babies, twenty-somethings, hundred-somethings and every one in between.

Being weird is good, absolutely nothing to be ashamed of! :p

How fast does your mood change?

My mood swings are legendary…which kinda goes without saying given I suffer from bipolar!

My melancholic mood today could well be a magnificent mood tomorrow. It’s exhausting! ;/

How are you feeling?

Shitty, crappy, blargh, want to curl up in a dank, dingy cave! :/

What? Why ask unless you want me to tell you the truth? Why should people have to pretend to be okay just to make others feel better?

Do you want someone to call you right now?

The only person who could possibly call me right now would be a salesperson. So no.

Someone else, maybe, but because I’m not feeling all that hot today it would probably go unanswered as I tend to withdraw from the world when I feel like this.

What do you always take with you?

My backpack…always, without fail, I feel naked without it (I think homelessness contributed to this need to have it with me 100% of the time!)

In fact, the owners of one of my most frequented shops have taken to calling me “Backpack Andrew” :p

Is your bed comfortable?

Nope…there are several broken springs that poke into my groin when I’m trying to sleep. However, it’s a lot more comfortable than trying to sleep in a park, so I’m not complaining! :p

Would you say you’re an understanding person?

Yes.

Are you generally a happy person?

What exactly is a happy person? Happiness is a state of mind, not a personality. You can be happy one minute and miserable the next, it’s constantly fluctuating and evolving. No-one can be a happy person because no-one can be happy all the time. Anyone who is should not (under any circumstances) be trusted because they’re lying to themselves and thus would have no problem in lying to you.

Who’s in your Facebook profile picture with you?

I don’t have a Facebook profile, but when I did, no-one was in my profile picture with me…which isn’t all that surprising really! :p

Were you single on Valentines Day?

I’ve been single for the last five Valentines Days…as I’m reasonably sure I will be for every Valentines Day for the rest of my meagre life.

Ah well, guess no-one will get to experience how insanely romantic and creative I can be again. Their loss! :p

What is the last movie you watched?

Argo, during a movie centered social group on Thursday. I could barely hear the audio because it wasn’t loud enough and no-one else wanted it turned up, but on the whole I thought it was a rather great film. Not sure if it should have won Best Picture, but then I haven’t seen any of the other nominees so I can’t really comment on that.

I am planning on watching a film this afternoon as I have no energy to do anything else. Any suggestions?

Do you listen to songs when you’re done?

When I’m done with what? This question is confusing me, which isn’t a good idea when I’m feeling the way I do right now, so I refuse to answer it out of protest!

How long does it take you to fall asleep at night?

Sleep? What is this mysterious sleep you speak of?

Are you talkative?

In real life, no, I’m not talkative unless I’m drunk, (hypo)manic, in one-on-one/one-on-two company or a combination of the three.

In cyber life, I’m more talkative than in real life, but still highly reserved, anxious and guarded.

What are your St. Patty’s day plans?

Ugh. Why does everyone celebrate St. Patrick’s Day but completely forget the days of St Andrew, St George and St David?

Funnily enough, I’m not a fan, thus I will be doing nothing but my normal Sunday activities.

seaotters

Did you know sea otters hold hands when they sleep to stop themselves drifting away? You do now! :)

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4 thoughts on “Sunday Stealing: Sell your bad memories here

  1. I didn’t know that, about otters, that is really sweet. I agree everyone has a moment weirdness or two.

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  2. You do not have to pretend to be OK to make me feel better, but perhaps you are really OK, considering you are a survivor, and that makes me feel better knowing that you never give up!

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  3. Those are some great images. You’re better off without Facebook

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  4. to qote a line from the original fame movie…never being happy doesn;t mean being unhappy does it?

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