All that I am, all that I ever was…

I am more than my mental health. I am more than my homelessness. I am more than any one aspect of me. I am Addy. And this is…

Place face here…and SCREAM!


My morning so far:

1) Woke up feeling good after a dream involving squeezy cheese.
2) Made a beautiful cup of Green Tea.
3) Walked to the Internet.
4) Logged onto the Internet to submit my Centrelink form online so I can get my benefits tomorrow.
5) Submitted my Centrelink form.
6) Stared at the screen in disbelief as I read my payments had been “suspended” with no further explanation.

Cue internal screaming.

And the way I’m feeling right now it won’t be long before I’m screaming externally.

Without that payment I can’t pay rent, I can’t buy food, I can’t get medication.

Without that payment I am, as they say, completely and utterly fucked.

I now have to cancel all plans for the day, battle my current heightened anxiety (not exactly helped with this!), hike 10km to the nearest Centrelink office, and pray I can get my payments reinstated by the end of the day otherwise I’ve no bloody idea what will happen with flat, food and ever-bloody-thing-else.

This is, as I’m sure you’d agree, exactly what someone with cycling moods needs to lead a stable life :/

I do hope everyone else is having a better start to the day than I am :)

7 thoughts on “Place face here…and SCREAM!

  1. I wish you the best of luck, Addy. This has got to be scary.


  2. Oh no…..I hope they can get it sorted for you!!


  3. What a day, I hope you get things straightened out today. Good Luck :}


  4. That’s crap Addy! I hope you can get this sorted ok? Good luck


  5. Thanks for the comments :)

    This was definitely not what I wanted to be doing today, but I did manage to sort it out eventually (only took ten hours of my life!). Payment has been reinstated with a slight reduction, but seriously happy I’ll be able to pay rent – which is due tomorrow!

    Hope you all had more more stress free and inspiring days :)


  6. Glad that you got the payments figured out. I bet you are tired from all of that hiking too. I hope tomorrow is much better and less stressful for you.


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