All that I am, all that I ever was…

I am more than my mental health. I am more than my homelessness. I am more than any one aspect of me. I am Addy. And this is…

Bi-Bi Love. Bi-Bi Happiness. Hello Loneliness. I think I’m gonna cry-yy.

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C’mon now, you all know the lyrics…
#Bi, bi love…bi, bi happiness…hello loneliness…I think I’m gonna cry-yyy#

Because, hey, when all of your dreams completely dissipate into thin air in one day, what is there left to do but sing, even if it does make you cry like a schoolgirl devastated by the break-up of Boyzone.

After months of speculation, research, self diagnosis and discussion yet another label can join the stickers currently slapped on my forehead:

DEPRESSED FREAK — FRACKED UP SELF-HARMER — SUICIDAL TWAT
S.A.D aka STUPIDLY ANXIOUS DICKHEAD — LYMPHOCYTIC LOSER
now we get
BI-POLAR PRICK
For it is now official; I am Bi-Polar.
(which I’ve suspected for a while now anyway)
And which to be honest I have no idea what to say about – too busy thinking about how absolutely impossible it will now be to have acquaintances, friends, lovers, girlfriends, partners, wives, children, cute little pet wombats – to actually worry myself about the ins and outs of this exciting new illness joining the ever growing ranks of illnesses partying in my mind and body as if they’re the Blues Brothers on PCP.

Och well. It’s all good.

It’s not like I wanted any of those things anyway, so frack it, may as well join the party!

Everybody now…
#Bi, bi love…bi, bi happiness…hello loneliness…I think I’m gonna cry-yyy#

…and once again…

#Bi, bi love…bi, bi sweet caress…hello emptiness…I feel like I could di-iee..bi bi, my life, goodbye#

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One thought on “Bi-Bi Love. Bi-Bi Happiness. Hello Loneliness. I think I’m gonna cry-yy.

  1. There is no reason why a diagnosis of Bi Polar should stop you having friends, girlfriends, wives, children, cute pet wombats – I don’t ever remember seeing any law that says “If you are Bi Polar you cannot have a pet wombat!”Look out for a TV documentary by Stephen Fry which has just an Emmy award as best Documnetary of the year it is a two part doc called “My Life as a Secret Manic Depressive” it is brilliant well I thought so anyway.

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